So difficult…
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006I suppose I should confess that my other site, The Spine, is where I put all my energies. I attempt to update it every day with something ‘funny’. Yet no matter how difficult I find it to post there, I find it even more difficult to post here. Oh, I know it should be easy. I keep promising myself to make this a blog for things off the top of my head. But after working all day, then updating my other site, I find it so damn difficult to be serious. I find it even harder not to polish a sentence once it’s on the screen…
But I suppose the main reason I find it hard to post is that I don’t actually have many constructive opinions about things. I don’t understand Iraq or Iran. Middle East politics bore me senseless because the whole thing seems to transcend reason. Nor am I totally given to waffling on about things that I know very little about. Professionalism in any field worries me. It seems to be born out of arrogance, ambition, and some rather large and unwholesome does of self-belief. I never feel like I know much about anything, even when it’s self evidently obvious that I do and I have certificates to prove it.
Which is why it annoys the hell out of me when celebrities think I care what they think. These people lack self-doubt. I’m full of the damn stuff. I know I can’t be the only one to feel this way, but what saddens me is that we seem in the minority. And this is my point. What worries me about these single issue referenda is the fear that, for example, more than 50% of the county actually likes Paris Hilton, admires her, wants to be just like her. I guess if more than 50% of the country wanted her sent to a remote Scottish island for the rest of her days, I might be for letting the public have its say on all matters. At the moment, I just don’t trust the public. Does this make me a bad person? A tyrant? Do I have slightly fascistic leanings? Can’t we just form a movement? Begin with Paris Hilton and work our way towards solving the problem of Palestine? I don’t want to be seen as a tyrant but how do we stop these people?